dear J
being in love is definitely one of the greatest feeling ever experienced. yes, and after waiting for several years to move on (which i doubted whether i can or willing to move on my past), the feeling returns back and takes it place in my heart.
#dia, the most vulnerable yet perfect in my own vision. after knowing this God's creation for some times, and several times made disappointment for telling lies (it was beyond my control #mbem), finally i got the chance to meet the one that will always be my precious.
i was scared (too scared i guess) when i decided to go on my own to the Capital J. but, it turned out that all the past flashed by me. the first feeling to work far from hometown, to be independent. i cried, yet i felt happy at the same time. Friday, a day after what so-called Valentine's Day, at half past ten in the evening, i left for my dream using train.
during the journey, i tried to sleep, to rest my body and soul, to dream about you once again .. but still i was afraid. i tried my best not to expect more than i could deal. but yes...i fell asleep that night, dreaming bout #dia. i really wish....
and finally...i arrived at Gambir train station at around half past six in the morning. fresh air, little activity since it was weekend. but the crowd was already filled in the station..i text #dia, one time, two time, three time,..still no answer. was it a false alarm? were we never meant to be? hopeless, but i wasn't at home, i was in Jakarta, the land of all dreams (in Indonesia0 where people struggle in their top performance to reach their dream. So was I. I walked out the station, bought a TJ busway ticket and waited until my bus arrived and took me on the journey which i won't forget for the rest of my life...
i stopped at the main coridor, Harmoni shelter when suddenly PING!!!
a new message came ... from #dia. oh my God, were i dreaming? tried to pinch my own hand but yes..i wasn't dreaming. yes, it was #dia...the one that makes my heart beat fast. someone from the #Tjap family. i was so surprised, i kept smiling to my cellph. people were so dress up and i was like messy and awful. i replied one by one of the messages, sat down very nice and watched those people walked, passed by or perhaps ran towards their dream...Billionaire! but those scenery won't stop me from getting news from #dia. #dia asked me to wait at the shelter. "YES....i will wait for you!" and i did.
i tried to notice those faces....full of dreams (or hates) tried to scan if there were #dia among them...time passed by when suddenly ........... #dia, a face that i familiar with, walked by and sit a bit far from mine.."saya sudah di harmoni, mas ada dimana?" blushed, you were here for me? i just wanted to scream like the drama i've seen, to call your name and hug you there..but my mind returned back to reality..do you want someone else to look you weirdly top to toe?? okay, so i held myself and smiled on him..."coba tengok sebelah kanan kamu deh,i m here smiling for you" #dia, with skin like a porcelain, i was scared to break, so keep a distance a bit, but yes, my #dia has turned into #you the moment i saw his eyes...i'm foreverly yours.
the very unforgettable moment with #you. Pasar baru-lebak bulus-blok m and ended up cuddling and smooching all night long..i knew that it was too much too ask for more, so i prayed and gave thanks. when i saw your eyes, you calm me down. when i held you in my warm, you comfort me with your "baby bear smile' when i am with you, my world stops for awhile...yes...i love you so much!
but times has come for me to leave. back home, do all the routines back..but #you know that i will always be there for #you .... a kiss sealed our last day together. I love you before, right now, and the other days afterwards.
(dedicated for #you ... one that grab my attention and love me to the fullest)
